Post pregnancy challenge

Baby ke baad office wapas jaana? Yaar, itna mushkil tha jitna maine socha bhi nahi tha.

Main thoda expect karti thi ki tough hoga, par guilt, thakan aur sab kuch handle karna ek saath—itna overwhelming tha. Baby ko chhod ke jaana bohot mushkil tha, har waqt sochti rehti thi ki kya main sahi kar rahi hoon. Aur office mein? Lagta tha sab kuch thoda chaos hai. Meetings ke beech mein pump karna, phone pe baby ka status check karte rehna, aur apne kaam ko manage karna—bahut mushkil lag raha tha.  

Shuru ke din mein lag raha tha ki main sab kuch galat kar rahi hoon. Emails bhool jaati thi, meetings miss ho jaati thi, aur lagta tha ki na main apni baby ko acche se de paayi, na apne kaam ko. Phir dheere dheere samajh mein aaya ki sab perfect nahi hota, aur ye bhi theek hai. Sabse zaroori cheez thi ki maine help lene ka seekha—partner se, family se, aur even office wale colleagues se. Aur boundaries set karna seekha. Agar break chahiye tha, toh liya. Agar ghar par zyada time chahiye tha, toh woh bhi liya.  

Dheere dheere ek rhythm ban gayi. Ab tak bohot tough din aaye hain, lekin har din kuch naya seekh rahi hoon. Main ab sirf "mom" ya "employee" nahi hoon—main dono hoon, aur is baat pe mujhe garv hai. Haan, kabhi kabhi lagta hai ki sab kuch control mein hai, aur kabhi lagta hai ki chaos hai, par yeh hai na life ka part? Aur sach mein, main kuch bhi change nahi karna chahti.